A Personal Blog

I missed writing. There are so many things that I want to pursue but no matter how much willingness you have for each of these, sometimes it just doesn't work. I actually think that I am a superwoman in my own way -- being able to work eight hours a day (most often than not, more), being able to spend time with loved ones, family and friends, being able to make time for my different passions and hobbies -- but just now, I feel that it doesn't apply anymore.

It's not that I am ranting or whatever, I just honestly feel that time is running by so fast. It's actually something in favor for busy people (for employees like me), but sort of a downside too, because truly, there are so many things to do yet there is just so little time.

I wish I could do more. I wish I could go about my job everyday at the same time be able to spend time with all the people I love and still be able to squeeze my other obsessions. I am the type of person who wants to be present in all situations (for my duties as an employee, a daughter, a sister, a friend/BFF and a girlfriend) without having to drop anything. I could rush from one place to another just so I won't miss any of these, in the event that they all happen in the same day.

As the introvert person that I am (or that I used to be, hahaha), wishes like "Sunday-please-stretch-Monday-don't-come" are not strange. I whisper this in my head all the time, and for sure extroverts too, have the same thoughts. I genuinely ask for this to happen and when it does, I'd probably be one of those who will get up on a Monday morning with a big big smile after the weekend. Guess nothing would come greater than being able to accomplish everything according to plan.

You know I just want more time to watch my favorite TV series, and movies. To sing myself to sleep, to write on my planner in details like I used to, to play and cuddle with my brother when he jumps in my bed, to eat merienda while watching TV in the living room, to lay down on my bed while feeding my soul through books, to sing my heart, color my nails, the list goes on. For me, these are few of the best reasons to live.

I tend to be so random at times, sometimes I go deeper than how I am supposed to be seeing things, hence serious blog entries like this.

Anyway, I opted to include the outfit into this post as time is really gold most especially these days, and because of that I am trying to get back to the good old days and start my every day earlier. Maybe this way, I could somehow address these rants that I have right now if not fully able to. And how it is so timely that tomorrow is the alleged date of the end of the world! I feel a little sad about that because I don't know how would that be, no one knows, but at the same time I don't believe that it will. Haha, let's hope for the best! But yeah let's enjoy the next 24 hours to make sure, like teens would say, YOLO -- you only live once. Haha.

Happy Holidays! Missed you guys!

Xoxo

It's been a (long, long) while since I showed up here decently. The last few posts I had all said that I was busy with work that's why and today I still am. Forgive me for I really have to say that every time I start a conversation with you. Haha. I wish the world requires that work and passion share time in a very acceptable way, I mean like, whenever you squeeze your passion in between your work it wouldn't appear like you're neglecting the other and vice versa.

My job is unconventional. Well for people who belong to the corporate industry at least. I've already shared it with you but if you happen to accidentally drop by here, yeah we don't go to work in suits, pencil cut skirts and killer heels. We don't come 8:00AM (or 9:00AM) sharp, we can clock in anytime, hence the late night clock outs -- it's like clocking in at your own risk. And the day doesn't end when you step out of the office building, the working environment is not confined within the sides of your cubicle. It's pretty cool, it's dynamic and it's something that goes (or will go) beyond your expectations. It's fun.

I am a graduate of Bachelor in Science in Psychology and whenever me and some of my school/batch mates catch up a little (you know like asking updates about each and everyone's lives -- what happened after graduation, where do we work, do we have partners, do we still live in the same house, how are the siblings, etc.), it's really weird that I am in this industry and I am not where they are (yes because that's where I'm "supposed to be" [they guess?]) 

Seven years ago, I started to feel the pressure of knowing what I want and determining where should I wanna see myself in the future (and I started blogging also), so I ended up spending my time thinking on what industry would make me look professional when I reach the age of thirty and so. Maybe accountancy, anything with finance. Money always comes first here, even second and third. And who wouldn't want to see a bright and sure future ahead of themselves? Not me. But no matter how hard I tried Mathematics never liked me, so so much for pushing it. Medicine or law or education perhaps? I really liked the idea of wearing white and corporate and looking really neat, pretty, smart and professional, Science and English are one of my favorite subjects but thinking that it would take longer than usual is not just so enticing to me. Why not architecture or fine arts? I always loved art and papers and pencils are my friends. I don't know, I just felt like it wouldn't work between us for a long time. Well maybe journalism, mass communication or advertising? I really really love reading and writing, I am okay with memorization and stuff, it's my dream to become a weather forecaster and a music veejay but I suck like hell with public speaking.

And so I thought Psychology would be the best choice since it extends to more than just one field: academe (guidance counseling, teaching -- but since I don't like speaking in front of many people I'd prefer to be a college professor), medicine or law (it can serve as pre-courses to both) and corporate (HR -- recruitment, compensation and benefits, payroll, talent management) to name a few. I went to college, took the course and fortunately finished. I started working, it's nice to be in the real world and practicing my field of "expertise" but after a year I felt like it was becoming to be just a routine. It wasn't a good feeling, and given that I was still young, it wasn't really good.

I've always relied on my faith and lived through the thought that divine intervention is an essential part of life, and in that struggling phase of mine, it just took over and did it for me. I was led to the doorstep of this new industry I am in, and I was so happy. It just really came and knocked in front of my face and there was no other thing to do than to let it in. It felt so magical for I did not finish a degree related to this field and my working experience was way too far. I felt so blessed and it's one of the most amazing feelings I ever had in my life.

A year and a half later, it's still something that I am thankful for and one of the things that excite me. Though it's not about pure fun all the time, but I can truly say that it's one of the biggest and fruitful transformations I've had in my existence and not a single thought that I regret it have crossed my mind.

Black Knit Long Sleeves and Gray Pencil Cut Skirt: XDYE 

Gray Flats: Parisian | Black Weekend Tote: Chicify 

Silver Twisted Necklace: I.Am.G. by Girlie Go

As for the outfit, it's what I wore to one of the trainings I went to for work so it's kind of leaning to corporate. I am not so used to heels so I wore flats instead.

My entire family whom I love dearly and to the bits of my bones, my one and only love whom I'll fight for over anyone and anything in this world, my best friends and peers who are like real sisters and brothers to me and I know will always be there for me no matter what, my fun and perky office mates who are like house mates to me, the moments I share with these people every single day, the places that take my breath away, the books that feed my soul, the music that soothes my being, the food that nourishes me, all of these along with my job are some of the things that I am most thankful for. So many and I wouldn't mind putting them into a list one by one, for words would not be enough to express my gratitude and the happiness that all these have brought me.

Thank You, Lord.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Been so silent the past few weeks because 1. I am busy with work (and I know you figured I would say that, hahaha); 2. There's something that I've been working on behind the scenes (I hope to reveal it very soon); 3. I was hurt and felt really sad about certain things which I found unbelievable.

There's nothing really personal, nothing about me in particular, more of a group -- which of course I am a part of. It's actually funny, you know, realizing that I might be just overreacting and incapable of handling such emotions (to some whom have seen and read my instant takes on some subjects) -- but when I think about it, me, emotional management? Hmm, like, seriously?

Around two days ago (and two weeks have passed after those hurtful incidents happened), I came across remains [of those] and everything went flashing back again. I even told myself if I see more (and I did) of those, I would take that as a sign that I need to throw and shout it all out to the world, hence, me talking about this unlabeled matters of my heart.  I came to realize that it was really sad, it affected me in such a way that I thought I had my heart broken (well I really did -- I saw myself shedding tears for a number of days and it slaps me on the face every time I remember). I am lucky that it had been long since I felt that (or this) way and the words "move on" had remained unused in my vocabulary the last [probably] two years. Also maybe the reason why it was hard to take.

The thing is, it was more than just what's on the surface. To those who aren't/weren't part and haven't witnessed the whole series of events, it would always appear nothing, shallow and not worthy of such attention (and grieving). To us, especially me, it's what lies beneath that truly drives these emotions towards our/my being(s). It was extending to sorts of sensitivity including trust, betrayal, anomalies, credibility, conscience and service. And for me, these are things that should not be ignored and neglected.

In that very deciding moment, I would have to admit that just by merely looking (meaning it was raw, without analysis), I thought that there was something fishy and it was something that's not good about the side I was taking. It was against it and very judgmental. It was wrong, but my mind was in tabula rasa and I wanted an explanation, a justification as to why it turned out that way and that some people just threw everything I/we believed in and hoped for. I was in a state of shock for a couple of minutes and I couldn't take seeing these "some people" endure such pain when in fact they can fight with grace, even had all the chance to eat the other side alive. I wanted an instant answer to my agony and that was what I came up with.

Wrong. After hours of thinking and thinking, figuring things out, I was able to connect the dots. And it was more concrete and precise than my first inference. I was more than willing to slash out the previous in my memory right away, and I felt sorry that it was already coupled with questioning of loyalty and service. Upon digging a thousand feet deeper, something had drawn me back to my dashboard and I felt nothing but being betrayed (and these "some people" must have felt even worse, or worst) by those who were supposed to serve as our shelter.

It would be such a big fuss, a fearless revelation but unfortunately, I have nothing but strong hunches and instincts to support this that is why I would keep it locked. It's just too awful and devastating to continue living when you know that a strongly principled man (who is so dear to me and not only me) has been violated, harassed and stepped on. There's nothing else that I would want but a concise and reasonable study of everything. What saddens me even more is that, it could not have been like this, if only there were who stood by. It's so heartbreaking to accept that he who was always at the front line has been left alone and what's worse is that, the strong members of the community he had been fighting for so long were actually the ones who turned their backs from him. To make it even worst, I am part of this community, I was there, we were all there, but it was not enough. We needed them [strong members].

Thinking about it right now makes me remember all the pain. It had been so tough. It was never all about the label that came across, it has always been about the virtues and they weigh heavier more than anything. This instance has taught me a lot, but unfortunately what tops this list is that, these days, you would not know who to trust anymore. It's dangerous.

I know that there's nothing that can happen for things to go back to the way it was, and a crumpled paper can never be ironed, a broken glass can never be put back together.  But I know that what goes around, comes back around. Watch out.

When you yourself is the one who stained your own name, I tell you it would take forever before you could clean it up again (that is if you actually could, good luck with that). We were taught that when stones are being thrown at you, it's wheat that you should throw back instead. And if you really are a part of our race, our tradition, our community, it's what you would do.

We live up for three words.

If it doesn't occur to you now, you are not one of us.

Three words.

It's been a while and I missed you! Been working behind the scenes lately (I got something to reveal in the coming weeks -- but I hope it wouldn't take that long) and it's the month where everything's busy with work so please bear with me. Hihi

I've always been a basketball follower and I'm really going gaga over these games most especially if I'm a fan of the team playing. My alma mater has (well, I'm gonna say it because I believe it's true) been a good participant of the NCAA ever since and with that I am proud. Ever since my stay (and even after I graduated, even before I stepped into college) Letran has always made it to the Final Four, it may not always be until the Finals, but Final Four is guaranteed. It may sound so superficial because it's just a basketball league but to us, the Letran Community (and I am certain that to other schools which are also part of the league), it matters.

This season (88) has been so intense for us. With six losses (probably the highest figure in the past five years) and only twelve wins at the end of the elimination round, our team making it to the Final Four was indeed God-given. But all the hard work did not stop there as we needed to face another good team, San Sebastian Stags twice to be able to move forward. Calvin Abueva, otherwise known as "The Beast" was a threat, but our very own Kevin Alas stood out when he finished 43 points, 10/13 three point shots during the first twice-to-beat game. As expected, the second game was not that easy, but it was destiny that brought my team to the finals. Not part of the teams with highest standings, needed to beat another good team twice, and now, the finals. Destiny.

So Game 1 came, first time to face our rivals (San Beda Red Lions) in five years, at the Finals. It was so exciting, for it had not been easy getting into that position and just like what our shirts say, "It's nice to back" and it really is.

As always, I almost lost my voice due to extreme cheering (warning: If you're gonna sit beside me during basketball games you better ready your eardrums haha). Went out of The Arena still smiling and hungrier -- for the win --, though we didn't had our first victory that night. It was a real close fight, a 2 point lead wasn't that much of a threat. I am no sports analyst but even if I am just a mere part of the crowd, I also get the logic and I saw that there were discrepancies. Anyway, we're way past Game 1 and people might think that I am only saying this because I support the losing team.

Moving on to the second game, it was as if the odds were really trying to get in our way. From securing tickets, to the very bits of the game and even down to the outside. But we did not let anything hinder us, me and my folks risked it at the Big Dome despite lack of assurance. Fortunately, the Arriba spirit was too high that it was able to win over every hurdle.

Of course the defending champions (San Beda Red Lions) would never want to give us the chance to be able to force a game three -- they want to secure the title that day. We even heard about the bonfire (wait, am I talking about Ateneo?) just waiting to be lit after the game. The strength of their team is very unquestionable. Baser Amer and the other big men plus the presence of Nigerian import Ola Aldeogun is a continued legacy since their first championship in 2006 after 28 years -- Yousif Aljamal, Alex Angeles and Sam Ekwe were the men that time -- the Red Lions have always been in the Finals since then. On the other hand, 2007 was the last Finals the Letran Knights have participated in and they weren't able to bring home the crown as the Red Lions swept the two championship games.

The rivalry of these two teams roots from 1950 and still continues up to this day. Every move and every call are hot issues to both teams that always need clarifications. The second game of this season's NCAA Finals is a great example and everyone who watched the game (live or on TV) can attest to that. There were so many questions that started bugging our minds from the first quarter up to the last buzzer. But despite all of it, the blue blood rose above anything else that night, leading the road to tomorrow's Game Three.

It was such a sweet victory, for finally after 15 games that we have lost to the Red Lions, the streak was broken, we are back on our feet -- against all odds.

The Letran Community has so many sentiments, but our hearts (right now) are geared towards the 17th title and we would not let anything get in our way. We want to keep our focus and composure and fight as one community together. Today, we see this league as more than just a basketball tournament. The struggles we have faced (and are facing) have made us much stronger and bound us to be more than just a community but a real family. We also ask our saints, heroes and other alumni to come pray (with us) and watch over our basketball team as they hit the basket.

Tomorrow is going to be a big day for it will determine and define who the better team is. To both the Letran Knights and San Beda Red Lions, good luck and may a credible game three be seen.

As usual, I would say that I was so busy with work the past few weeks that's why I'm here only now. Teehee. Sorry about that.

To lighten up the mood, here's what I have for you today. Remember my post regarding my first design (really had to say first, who knows I might have a second or even third!) for Ingga Sandals? As promised, I'd be sharing how did I came up with it -- a.k.a. How Tos -- and today is the day! (had to say it that way, assuming your anticipation about it. Lol)

Like what I've said before, I sincerely believe in the concept of the brand, I wanted (or still wanting) to prove its credibility, and I know it can offer so much more.

Let me tell you a short story. I was actually kind of getting tired of my footsies, I mean, okay, to be honest, there are a lot of stuff on my "To Buy" list and one (oh, I mean more than one) of them is (or are) a pair (slash pairs) of sandals I've always eyed on the shelves of certain shops. But then again I have to finally learn how to control my expenses because I realized that I am not a fresh graduate anymore, I have to have some sort of achievement for myself (which happens to be in the form of savings) so I was refraining from going to the cashier these days. Hashtag priorities.

Then I remembered that if there's one thing I did right (or benefit) from splurging, that would be getting myself a pair of Ingga Sandals. In case you haven't heard about it yet, this might be a good introduction for you to use as reference. (?) I thought about the design of those slip-ons and strappies I've been wanting to purchase and then tried to get inspired as I play with the Ingga straps.

Below are more photos of the finished product, tried to capture all the angles, if ever you wanna try this design for yourself. Hihihi

Paired this with jeans and a plain white tee, and I honestly think that this [pair of] sandals spiced up the very basic outfit.

More importantly, if you haven't got yourself your own pair of Ingga Sandals yet and if you're interested, you might want to check the product through these contact details:

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http://inggasandals.webs.com/

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